Project Get Your Shit Together: first update

I assume that when a person gets depressed everything just kinda falls apart. At least that's what happened to me. How does that show exactly? Well for example my room looks like someone tried to blow it up. I have stuff everywhere. On the floor. On every single table that I own. On my bed. I propably have more of my clothes around the house than actually in my closet. (oops)
I look like someone tried to blow me up too (someone propably would if it wasn't illegal, because I'm annoying af). I use the same clothes all the time, because I don't have energy to wear anything else. I can't remember the last time I put on make up or any accessories. I don't take care of my personal hygiene as well anymore, because to me, if you ask me to take a shower, it sounds like you just asked me to run a freaking marathon while carrying a person on my back.
What else? My school grades are dropping, because I don't have the energy to study(don't lie, you are just watching Youtube when you are supposed to study)(okay yes, but not really). I rarely leave the house, because that sounds like a lot of work and usually means that I have to be around other human beings. (I hate people, but I love being with people, ironic, isn't it)

But because you can't get better if you just let your whole life fall apart, I have decided to start project Get Your Shit Together. What does it mean? It means exactly what it says. I'm getting my shit together. I'm gonna clean my room and get it done. I'm gonna make daily routines. I'm gonna take care of myself. I'm gonna be more active. So in a nutshell: routines, variety of activities going all the way from cooking to exercise to arts and just actual actions to get better.

I already started today. I got my book shelf organized.

While organizing it, I noticed that I have some books twice (TT), which literally just tells everything about me as a person. (Just like that bad joke that I just had to put in the middle of the sentence😂)
This is the point where I would facepalm myself if I didn't know from experience that it hurts. (I will propably do it anyways tbh)